I'm fighting and it's truly taking everything I have just to get through the days. I sleep a lot and read and sometimes get washed and dressed but to be fair it isn't often. I'm moving through space and time, slow, slow like a snail (dastardly creatures) but I AM moving.
Depression has a painful, vice like hold on me and the anxiety is bad too. It's hard for me to see that this period is going to ease off but I remain strong and try to stay positive when I can.
So, dropping in today to say "hello" and to share a few photos to try to show you how Andrew is doing everything he can to keep hope alive for me, for us....
* buying up our favourite verities of seeds (including potatoes and new garlic)
* adding more bulbs to the garden, especially snowdrops in the front and these lovely pots at the back
* planning hikes, which we hope to start tomorrow again etc
another treat
We hope, ardently, that this year we will be blessed some some better weather conducive to happy hiking and allotmenting. I need nature, I need to be surrounded and embraced by Her.
I had my first encounter with the allotment last week for quite a while.
And so we hope...
With love,
Carrie
Depression has a painful, vice like hold on me and the anxiety is bad too. It's hard for me to see that this period is going to ease off but I remain strong and try to stay positive when I can.
So, dropping in today to say "hello" and to share a few photos to try to show you how Andrew is doing everything he can to keep hope alive for me, for us....
* buying up our favourite verities of seeds (including potatoes and new garlic)
* adding more bulbs to the garden, especially snowdrops in the front and these lovely pots at the back
* planning hikes, which we hope to start tomorrow again etc
another treat
We hope, ardently, that this year we will be blessed some some better weather conducive to happy hiking and allotmenting. I need nature, I need to be surrounded and embraced by Her.
I had my first encounter with the allotment last week for quite a while.
And so we hope...
With love,
Carrie
I'm sorry to see that you're feeling as you do. Let's hope that spring brings better times and you get to enjoy both the allotment and hiking with Andrew and Toby. xx
ReplyDeleteThank you so much Flighty. It's been the hardest period of my illness in many years, a lot is riding on a good spring so here's hoping. Big hugs to you friend x
DeleteDaffodils! Magic. I've just realised that my pots of Eucharis are growing leaves like daffodils?
ReplyDeleteWOW, I just googled Eucharis and they are incredibly beautiful! It says they are lilies but Lordy, they look like the most beautiful white tete-a-tete - enjoy them! I shall need many photos. Thank you for your comments recently, they have meant the world xxx
ReplyDeleteI hope that the spring flowers manage to bring light into your heart.
ReplyDeletethank you Sue, truly xx
DeleteCarrie, I’ve missed your photos on Instagram and have been worried about you. It just occured to me to check your blog this morning. I do hope today (and each that follows) lifts you up a little bit more. A very long distance friend that you barely know sends love and all good energies. ~ m r
ReplyDeleteHello sweet Maru, thank you for taking the effort to come here to my safe place and leave me such a kind hearted message. I really appreciate it. I'm fighting, that's all I can ask of myself these days xx
ReplyDeleteHope that you are feeling better xx ab
ReplyDeleteIt's always good to hear that you are still fighting and pushing through the darkness.
ReplyDeleteDepression and anxiety, ack. Here's a (((((hug)))) from across the pond, in Wisconsin, USA. Sally
ReplyDeleteSorry to hear that you haven't been well, as you haven't posted for a while I assume you still aren't feeling so good. I hope that are beginning to feel better and will post some good news soon.Really miss your posts .Sending you warmest wishes xx
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